LACK OF CONFIDENT ......ANGER....FRUST... STRESS

I BEEN LOST IN DE JUNGLE...NOBODY SAVE ME .. for so long until i forgot bout MY BLOG..

i ows think wat should i blog... but it all listed in my heart... but all cnt Xpress out ar another word HARD.. haiss...

Y do ppl Blog? xpress de feelings dat is hard to tell? blogging as a memory? list out all de happyness sadness happen in de life?? swit moment???? a journal? a diaries? bla bla bla...... all above mayb one of de reasons kua...

and nw i gna make one reason for my self.....Y i BLOG? i duno? For fun? to make compliment? hahaXP bu dong bu dong....

hais... i felt my life was boring and is still boring nw...wat can i do? haiss.. there still alot of things i have to do and have to finish them... i gt de responsibility.....it is my Life not others... i should do it IF i think it is the best way or a better thing to me. but i owes not dare to try it. [ 失败的我]

I think i always lack of confident.[ SERIOUSLY IT IS!!!] no doubt it...haiss... hw ar hw ar?? i wana gain more confident. i owes not dare to stand out, not dare to do dis and dat, even singing... haiss.. haiss... T.T

I gt lots of frens... [ppl may thinking : SO?] I love all my frens.. i will try to help them when i can help and if i gt de ability to help..And i do oso need frens to help me when i was LOST, Frust and SAD.... but all de frens are in different batches... some are my x classmates, migg frens, hao pen You, bestest frens family and so on.... i always treat them good bt when all come together, i get confuse? different ppl have diffrent views. so they do and i do. wat sort of frens are they to me? good o not?
Is there any law stated that girl must have more GIRLS FRIENDS than BOYS FRIENDS??
Cant Girl have MORE BOYS FRIENDS THAN GIRLS FRIENDS?
IT DOESNT MEAN HAVING BOYS FRIENDS IS HAVING A BOY FRIEND.
WE ARE NOT DOING ANY ILLEGAL THINGS OR WAT? SO WAT DE PROBLEM WIF IT?
FRIENDS WILL NEVER DO DAT UNLESS THEY NOT TREATING U AS THEIR FRIEND.

Family owes thinking dat their daughter go out wif many guys is not a good thing.. Y they saying dat? mayb parents worried bout de daughter's de 安危. But They are jz purely wan to go out together to have funs. not doin anything illegal or anything against de law.

Y they have to think like go out wif guys is bu shan bu shi de girl? if like dat better de world dun hav distinct between gurl and boy. Make them as de same is de better kua. y cant they think dat mayb their daughter mayb not reli ngam keng with gurls kua.. mayb in de things like make up, fashions and bla bla.. mayb the daughter abit boy boy kuan.. like cars, play games and bla bla...

and to those outsiders, frens de frens, aunty, uncles and bla bla... DONT SIMPLY JUDGE PPL FROM WAT U SEE IF U DUNO ANYTHING BOUT SOMEONE. IT ONLY WILL CAUSE PROBLEM FROM WHAT U SEE LE AND TELL PPL. IT MAKE DE FAMILY DONT HAVE A PEACEFUL LIFE. BACKSTABED PPL IS NOT A GOOD THING AS WELL IS JUZ MAKE ME THINK THAT U R SO KEPO AND VERI 机车.
I felt SHAME of u~ [FK off]

i hen bu shuang dat ppl owes have that habits de.
IS IT U JEALOUS OF IT O U GOT NTH TO DO? LUAN LUAN SAY PPL~
[opps i m going too OVER liao] =|

ANWAYS. back to nOrmal. I KNOW WHAT I DO AND I M CLEAR WHAT M I DOING. SO DONT BE SO PENYIBUK ...AND PLS DO SUPPORT IT..!!

I BEEN TRYING TO FOCUS ON MY EXAMS DAT ARE COMING SOON. But i cant concentrate..... i always thinking negatif on my study... wat should i do? i wan to prepare early but not a last minute thing... but las minut is better than nth rite?

education is important.. without it, there is no key for u to open de door of success.
i will keep trying to find de better way to revise for my exams.

i want to DIET~
i been trying to keep my self fit but i owes 半途而废 which is not a good thing. i been jealous of ppl who are slim and have pretty body... hehe..Y they can but Y dont me??


HAIS. I ALWAYS LACK OF CONFIDENT CONFIDENT......................................................