Last Day of CNY

the 1st post for my 2010 is on the last day of CY.

I back into blogging because i cant find any place o anyone for me to say, write or even share with.

i just back frm my long long 3 weeks CNY vaccation in Melaka as well as 3 days trip in Johor Bharu. I had learned alot of things in the days i live with my grandparents.

i felt so happy to be wid them and even when i apart frm them this morning.. i cried.
I can 100% said that i m soft- hearted person. Easy to believe people and also an easy crying person.

I reached Brunei at 3pm then Mumy bring me go painian~ then around 6pm i follow mmy go fetch my sis and i told her to drop me at mall and she go back painian agen~

He is de 1st person i will think of when i back Brunei~ I'm like without any orders.. will automatically told him wher m i.. what i do~ evendor He nut reli my　who who who lohh.. But i jiu shi gt na me yi dian de xi huan him kua.. he also noe it.. but he reject~ but yet he still care of me..~ I miss every moment wid him~ can unexpectedly get something surprise~

so i went to mit him ther... he havent got his dinner.. so i treat him loh... c him eating and suddnly
i felt bit of jealousy when he told he dat he in love wid someone.. wat he do. wat he said.... i really wana ask him to stop or even pretend not listening to him.. then he will touch my head like treating me dat i m xiao meimei~

mayb i m a bit selfish dat i want him to belong to me Only but it never happened at all~ even in future i guess.. i juz appreciate every moment i wid him~ even a single second.. a glance to him also can fulfill my hearts..

after dinner, he said wan go arcade sing2.. however it full~ so v went to fun arcade.. i purchase 2 token to 2 songs only~ He said he gna sing to me~... so i sang 不做你的朋友 by she　and i choose a song for him to sang to me~ 终于说出口　by xiao yu~..

He relly sang well even without music..like wat he always do b4 on fone~i almst cry whn i listen de song he sang and lay on his shoulder..~ the feeling is juz cant mention... so sweeeet~

then afterdat. v back to arcade to continue sing agen~ nw is the time for indonesia version.. juz noe dat v both love peterpan songs.. then v sang 2 songss of them...then

fone rang~ mmy come fetch me le... he peii me down de escalator.. and gave me a "secret" gift.. SO happy.. felt like we r couple.~ but it nver happen tho~ we total spent a $10 note which give me a happy moment with him.. i felt it is worth-ed ....

then jiu go home le lohh..~i opened my FB n MSn.. and nw bloging...
[reading the words that she said made my heart so pain~ so so so jealous....]
blehhhsssssss......... <3 hearts him always~

Blogging..~ hrmmphh

recently duno wat to do.. wat m i thinking... haha
been lost in the ocean for so long.. struggling to reach the island.~

bla bla bla.~ duno wat to rite.. duno hw to xpress de feelings... something bad something good. but still more toward bad!

i m bored bored bored.. holiday at home like wasting my time.. study study don wana make me love it!! hais~ wondering my result coming out wil be wat?

till here.. lols
craps at all nia..
Chaox

Normal Friend

Chinese Lyrics

等待 我隨時隨地在等待

做你感情上的依賴
我沒有任何的疑問 這是愛



我猜 你早就想要說明白
我覺得自己好失敗

從天堂掉落到深淵 多無奈


我願意改變 (what can I do?) 重新再來一遍
(just give me change) 我無法只是普通朋友
感情已那麼深 叫我怎麼能放手


但你說 I only want to be your friend
做個朋友 我在你心中只是just a friend 不是情人


我感激你對我這樣的坦白

但我給你的愛暫時收不回來


So I 我不能只是be your friend


I just can't be your friend no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友 不能只是做普通朋友

English Translation

Waiting
I'm always, always waiting
To be support to your feelings
There is no doubt about it
This is love

I guess...
You've long wanted to make things clear
It feels like I've really failed
Fallen from heaven down to a deep abyss
Just can't help it

I'm willing to change (What can I do?)
To start all over again (Just give me a chance)
I can't be just a regular friend
When my feelings are already so deep
Tell me how can I let go?

But you say I, I only want to be your friend
Be a friend
In your heart I'm only just a friend
Not a lover

I'm grateful you were that straightforward with me
But the love I gave you, I can't take back just yet
So I, I can't just be your friend

I just can't be your friend no, no, no

I can't just be friends with you
Can't just be normal friends

Holidays Come to the End

14 June - Sunday
- before the day gonna hav BBQ, i went to my cuzin bday party at Subok. After dat, i continued make a last minut shopping to make sure everything is enough for us for today beach party. after i went home around 10.30pm, i started to pack and get ready all the foods. I marinated the chicken wings, Chicken breasts for satay and also lamb chops. After dat, i made sushi agen and also Tiramisu cheesecake. End up finsh preparing at around 2.30am morning. I tot i will be sleepy.. who noes i went on9 agen chating wif my Dady Marcus and also some frens. On that day, I went ther at around 7 plus with Xiulee and De Chuan.. Too bad when v arrived ther,there wasnt any place facing the sea ther. All are just fully booked by ppl. So v went to the down hill there, wow lucky gt ppl help me booking le. dat is my Marcus dady.. i keep msg him in de morning to ask himm go early... as he did.. jz slightly earlier than us. anyway, gotta thank him pulang.. heheXP

Then, v started to burn de charcoal.. frm 7 plus v burn till gna 9am haven burn dao..hais failure..whn Zhong xiang mmy come.. then she helped us agen.. Thank Aunty.. then v started our bbq party.mana tau at de moment some problems come out.. no ice.. Winson gor de ice nut yet fully freeze.. charcoal nt enuf and there wasnt any clipper and brushh.. ohh my goshh, so me, Marcus dd, his bro Edward and Winson gor went to the nearby kedai runcit buy charcoal.. but thenn superb expensive ar.. $6 per pack.and v bought ices as well.. then about brushes and also clippers, v went back to Marcus ddy House at Jerudong.. and lucky v manage to get one.. V back to the beach after half hour lor... continue our bbq party. heheXP Alot of ppl go le.. gt Xiulee, Me, Zhong Xiang, Marcus, Edward, De Chuan, Shirley, Alex, Shawna, Suju, Jeffery, BB Jie, n 13 bros all arrived in de afternoon...

Then, v played alot and make funs wid water balloon.. keep attack ppl ahhaxP. v manage to take alot of picture but they still at Marcus thereee. i havent got them frm him.. then v go into the sea around 3pm. V swam and play sand.. throw sand ball to our enemy lor.. Then bad thing happen is i lost my bracelet lor.haiss.. then i kena burried by them in de sand.. but haha.. i veri lihaii.. i can out by my self even burried inside so deep.then v saw a LIVE SHOW played by a malay Couple and like dat lor.. end up go back to our hut around 5pm. make 2nd round bbq agen n went home.
After i went home, i gotta make a 2nd round outing agen. Attending my Jiu Gong frm Canada de Daughter wedding lor.. hahX..My lucky num is 2 and 8 but then non of it kena.. hahxp Nvm.. jz having fun and i was fulled dat nite.. so many delicious thing to eat haha..
i guessed i sleep at 4am dat day kua.. being sleepless for 2days le..haiss

15 Monday- i went to my frens house.. then make another outing to Mall. then i guess i went home at 3 plus.. and afteerdat at nite go tuition kua..

16 Tuesday- i stayed at home.. but i think at night, i went out wid Jolene, Johnson and Han [my ex] just having fun around lor...

17 Wednesday - hrmphh stay at home kua... heheXP [actually gna dating de.. but dear go miri T.T]

18 Thursday - Watched Night in the Museum2 wif my TRue LOve [aiPeng2], Marlene and Edison at Mall. then get a new 3g line for my uncle.. nice num.. 8212201 which is my bday num.. lols.then went home around 4 like dat. Continue tuition at nite lor...

19 Friday - I WON a Escapade $20 Voucher.hehXP
o o
20 Saturday - Went to Mall around 9pluss pm. i met alot of my frens.. Nix Thien Richard and Yong one gang, Xiao kean and Peichoo, Ming and Lung frm Lumut.. hahaXO so lucky....lols..But my aim is to go escapade tapao half price lor..and also collect my voucher. Han n me so kia lang ar.. almost all de train de sushi and maki was taPao by us.. heheXp oni paid $18.90 duno the person gt count wrong o nut.. v almst tapau bout 5 big packet plastic bags.. then v went to have nasi katok at Tarobubble at de back of sempurna ther.... the sambal ther veri nice.. oiishii spicy but eat dao suang..

21 Sunday - have family day lor..went to Singapore table for breakfast in de morning... de services hmm nut reli reached my mumy de yao qiu..hahXp.. she keep complained. and i found a hair on my mei2 de roti tisueee... disgusting.. no more next trip to ther.. then i stay at home at night lor.... didnt go anywher.. heheXP Father day also.. heheXP,... My cousin all go miri.. hehe.. hais.. i wana go oso. didnt bring me de.. T.T

22 Monday - Started my math xtra clas. go scul at 9 finshed at 11. then go home.. guai2 at home..

23 Tuesday- continue go xtra clas.. but keep fall as sleep in de class. how neh?? lols.. then jiu go home lor

24 Wednesday -i dnt go to extra class.. heheXP lazie.. stay at home nia. MangJin back frm K.L le.. heheXP

25 Thursday - planning to out wid Marlene them agen.. but then too bad no car cnt go.. and tranformer 2 premier.. FULLY BOOKED Arghh!!! then i keep call de mall for booking 2morw lor... hehe Lucky. booked 9 tickets for 2mrw 1pm..hehe.. dated wid Xiulee,MJ, Marcus, Edward and his big bro and also De Chuan agen..heheXP.. so end up 7 Confirmed nia.. went tuition in de nite.. Steven lanja us eat Low San Flat de Kolomee.. and something funny happen ... Aston kena wanted n knt go Low San Flat eat mayb One mnths hahaXP..

26 - went tuition in de mrning .. back home at 10.30pm. waiting Xiulee come fetch me.. then go fetch De Chuan.. heheXP/ My grandma make rice dumpling agen.. yummyy~
after Xiu fetch us. v went to mall to collect de tcket lor.. and went to AHan Thai for drinks.. who noe.. mv start at 1pm le.. v haven fnsh our food. so v tapau n go lor.. I met alots of Katok Junior.. ahha..hmrph v watching de same mv pulang.. Tranformer 2 .. nice Mv.. thumB uPs.. haha. but at de moment.. there nth happen..Jus all of us went to toilet one tym due to tangki ful of water frm Ahan Thai..only Marcus went for two tym.. Then at nite, edward Msn me and ask me beside him gt ppl sit mahhhhhh.. coz i sat at de back of him mar.. i Say no ar.. then He jiu said Marcus
saw a ppl wearing cap sit beside him... sound creepy.. but then v all feels veri cold tat tym... and when i go collect de tcket. E 7 actually gt ppl booked but then tat row oni gt 3 of them sit.. marcus edward n his bro.. then De chuan de leg kip put in de frnt of dat chair.. meaning beside de chair wher Marcus saw de *TuT* haha.. Bwhhx.. then Chuan de FB shoutout.. was screaming the.r.. ahhaaP Creepy.. n Edward get a fever after dat... bwohh... hope everything goin fine. ehehXP... wakaka.... till here.. lazie post le..

Lucky??

i won a $2o voucher frm Escapade in FaceBook~ becz I paste one of the dine-in pic ~heheXP

Shuo Hao de Xin fu ne???

The moment u back, i was so happy.. i cant even fall asleep...but....de bad thing started to happen....

On the day u back. when i was in de beach.... my pink crystal bracelet [Symbolic LOVE] was washed away by wave... i think there will be a bad thing happen between us. I try to comfort my self not to think so much negative... as time go on.....life still on toO....

BUT Thiss really happened so suddenly and i cant even can avoid it.. till i felt i m lost in de world. even a small corner, i cant even find myself ther.. a single memory frm u is all i had in my mind..

You said You Gona Keep de Promise Btw Us.. I Trusted U.. Believed You.... [M i a FooL??]

i duno wat should i do? mayb it jz my fault of being like a baby for u? mayb it jz a wave in de sea trying to interupt our peaceful beach? I dun wan to miss a thing...... dat so Called LOVE.

Life On V Eternity

I holding my tears frm the moment v started the convers. till nw.. i still holding it.. to avoid it falls frm my eyes. I dun wish to make u stay.. but i want us to be fine....

U told me to swap de feelings...but i Cant. Me n U had a deep feels on each other. eventhough u told me to swap.. u cant swap oso... hais..

starting to be an eMo-ians.. as u n me.

shuo hao de xin fu ne?

我们之间的约定。。。。难道就是这样的结果？？
我不敢去面对这事实。。告诉我该这么做？

Pictures.... Old to LaTest...

My Dream Fone.. SE T707i

Hmphh duno hw many years ago.. form 3 , form 4 lyk dat...

When i was in form 5

After Rebonding my hairr....in Dec 2007 & 2008

Recently Upper 6 2009~

The eNd.... lols.. spot anyy changes???

10.6.09

Being bz this few days and there was no connection so yeahh... cnt do my bloging..

I gt nth to blog oso.. everyday doing the same things agen and agen.. I oso get bored of it.

CHMS have a small funfair on Sunday. I saaw alots of my sculmates, chatters at ther.. but too bad i only manage to stay a few hours at ther. becoz mmy cnt tahan liao.. it so boring... n hot... heheXP

then the nite, i went out wif Jolene. Planning to go Fyn Shyling.. but when i almst reached her house.. she txt me dat she nut around liao. So I straight away went to Lan Zhong watch Bball Match. [weird hor] i nver get to set full match, y it made me go? BcZ of HIM lor.. hehe. He wanted me to go support him.. So i DID. To keep my Promise.

I reached ther, me and Jolene were sitting in de corner near de entrance. I was bz looking everywhere for HIm.. finally i saw him. I txted him lor.. then i tot he noe i m here le.. but... haiss.. after de half match, Jolene gt date wid ppl so yeah.. dun wan mafan her so. i follow her to gdong. I met Han Pui2 and Johnson them... hmm was hangout wid them awhile and kip msg wid HIM.. Lols.. He Won de match. Congrates to Him...

The whole nite, Both of us was jz msg msg n on9 on9. non-stop.. till batt flat baru wan stop.. heheXP.. I reached home bfore 10 Pm.. early lehhx.. hen guaii2


Then Ysterday, i didnt had my dinner. So very hungry drg nite. Trying to tahan but sdnly wana eat sushis.. hahaxp .. i stopped chating wid my friends and didi.. so i went to kitchen n start to make sushi.

I brought to school this morning. Planning to give Fang eat. But today duno wat go wrong....
I went to scul early in de morning like around 6.30? hehe.. de scul was empty.. so i fyn a place to sit.. like normal.. hmm then i started to finish up my exercise. Then sdnly, my eyes can c dao.. gt
ppl trying to fright me. so i turned.. haha

Guess who?? Is aYu De Chuan.. so wuliao him. today suddly come fyn me tok de.. Lols.. he sit infront of me and v toks.. i even lanja him sushi.. duno taste good o nut for him.. haha paisehh.. then v kip tok tok tok lor.. Fang, Chi woo, Khiong come le.. Chuan still sit ther. almst gt more than half hours. til de scul bell rang.. [happy ohh]

haha..then .. jiu lyk dat lor..

i have my business class, skip my eng class becoz doin CV [boring], go my math class new topic agen and end wid my act class. and fnsh le lor..

then when i goin home de tym. i was waiting for my car. Chuan saw me agen.. n say hi to me lor.. haha.. then after awhile i jiu go home le lor...

simple n eazy life.. lols

Get Ready n Back to Normal

- haha looking for mii???

woow.. almst one month le i didnt post any entry in my blog.. anyone miss it?
i think no kua...hehe coz y? Boring ...

lolx. i fnaly gna hav my las AS Exam on dis 5 June for my business studiess paper 2.. then i will be having my holidays mood doing my holiday planner. wakaka...

Recently, alot of things happen... gt bad n good things...

1. I getting closer to him and v even tok more than before..[ahaha.. frens]
2. I start my new Life wid him [ nut de him in No.1]
3. 1st tym at Katok go in SA room.. kena ucap escape.. haiss.. kNS
and so on ....bla bla bla....

jz bit smal small intro to warm up my blog..

FOR CHINESE BRUNEI MIGG CHATTERS:

There will be a BBQ Beach Party at Berakas Recreation Park on This COming holiday on 14 JUNE 2009. Foods and Drinks are prepared and probably there b some games..

PRICE:

one ppl $12
couples $22
Kid below 12 years old $5

TIME:
From 7 AM to 4 PM

if u wana join us on this party. Pls do make a confirmation with EMO aka BB_ STARZ ....

k.. ThanK yOUx

I HAD MISS BLOG ALOT OF DAYS. SO I JZ SUMARISE WAT HAPPENING....

3 May
i had two date.. but i duno which one should i go.. both was in escapade.. one is my migg frens and one is my scul frens...[see.. hw hard for me??]
but at last i joined Migg frens.. cz someone jz come back frm Johor... heheXP i Miss HER alots..
then after finshed our meal. v went to the MALL. v hang around in de arcades..UNI and oso FUNLAND. v hav lots of funs.. smile alots...XD and i met alot of my childhood friends...

2 May
something happened in my scHool. Obviously.. it is CREEPY~ but i was normal to it liao.. n it is confidential. haha.. nt good to Xpose hiak hiak!!!

1 May

so fast oledi may ar.. time realy go so fast.. exams are arounds in two weeks tym le.. get start de engines!!!

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APRIL

30
i had my math topical test on Kinematics. then accounting agen have to extend time to 1.30 after dat have my las session of cooking.. Teacher invited a lady frm a restaurant to demostrate us hw to cook nasi briyani and also another batch was demonstrate on Tiramisu.. de yummy yummy.... make my saliva droopps.. liao

29
i had my eng Mock exms, i was totally xhausted bcz i dun hav more break tym as i started my class at 7.45am till 5.oopm. i oni get to rest drg 12.30 to 1.30.. jz dat one hr in dat day.
28
nth much.. doing assignment
27
i had my class foto and need to attend the talks for de complain thingy for scul.but i had attend it on sat so no need le..
26
sun ar do nth.....
25
i went to LT1 wid ten fang.. v make lots of complains bout teachers, librarian, and even toilets.. it make us so embrassing when toks bout toilets.. anyway it was fun.. bcz principals are so friendly
24
i went tuition agen.. and went Qlap say dao Fred then went mall... with Jolene and Shyling.. Spend alots.. in eating.. heheXP..
then went to Md awhile to c Semi-Final PYRO Friendly Match of Aston..
23
cooking club. teacher had teached us to make cookies, cupcakes and another group of ppl was doin kek batik.. nyamm yummyyx... next week will be de las session...
22
Jian liang's bday.. veri re nao lor.. almst all de BE's chinese were celebrate wit him.. so happy him until kena ALUBA....
19
I had my Breakfast at Dynasty, Gadong with my family. how long v had not out for limteh le.. so miss it!! i saw my business clasmate wid my former tcher at menglait